Posts in Category: method

varial recognizance

erasing dry, burning green
running cold; will’s machine

diagramma in locomotion
bound, each one to the other
muted notation relocutes
as the breeze resumes abluster

I can hear them talking to you with no reply. It has been a long time.

dressed to quell

Some doing, is all it takes. A little dying, a diet of lying, and wordless abandon to the strands of thin light playing against the glass. Medicine to begin and end another one night sanguine stand in the sunkissed sand. Manual time, borrowed from a terribly broken watch. A certain number of steps and the grand secret of seductive grief.

Then the process complexifies and tends to vary, night-to-night. Last night, it was a sort of retrocausally prophetic stage play, my own shadow portraying young death himself. The day prior had been deliberately drenched in whiskey, too much, but enough to mine a well-founded fear and its accompanying abject terror. I was still in the late-stage dry blitz, slightly dizzy, and made much worse with my newly minted nightmare laid bare. Then the light ceased dancing and the room ceased to be.

patients iii

“That’s really sweet,” says one patient to the other, “but the second you fall in love, a fate worse than death is on the table. I’m not wrong.”

paranoiac critical mass

The basis of the current application is adaptation.

I first made note of Dali’s method in 2017, but it never appeared to be practically useful until I came home and started digging through websites instead of books.

who’s the lucky lady?

In a windowless room yesterday, a nearly pristine green notebook opened for the first time in seven years.

patients II

One patient says to the other, “nah-uh, I’m out, y’all are gonna give me nightmares, shit.”

patients I

One patient says to the other, “they won’t believe I wasn’t trying to kill myself.”

surveys: flours

What’s your favorite memory which you’re not certain was real?

Who cares for the person you care for most, as much as you do?

Has anyone ever broken your heart without knowing your name?

When did you last look into the mirror and see something beautiful looking back?

Would you see something impossible if you looked behind you right now?

What’s the last dream to make you feel bad in a way you couldn’t understand?

What’s the idea you had? You know the one.

Is there anything you love so much that you never need to think about it?

When you laugh so hard that your eyes close, what color do you see?


  • I’ve now found three different notes to myself, going back at least six years, which all say it’s “very telling” that the “one thing” I can put into words or on paper directly involves the “sense of touch.” I know that they’re referring to the emotional temperature.. thing, feeling, whatever the right word for it may ultimately be. I don’t know what it’s supposed to tell, exactly, but I do know how drunk I must have been when writing at least two of those notes and enough liquor makes the details both critically important and incomprehensible.
  • These were from a conversation with someone who I just put down at the time as “flours” and “flour girl” and I couldn’t remember her name now if I tried. But I don’t feel like giving her a phony name and the short time we spent in the same room predates most of the other references to “x girland “the girl who x”. Most people don’t really care much about their first name, and I don’t think she did either. We didn’t actually talk about it.

echolog – the girl with the nightmare affair

echolog – the girl with a secret weapon